Tuesday, December 25, 2007
FYI.. Diploma in Music have 3 types.. basically is, composing, teaching and performance..
and my initial idea was to study performance.. as it seems much more interesting... that was before I consult anyone..
And then, my former teacher came around and tell me that performance had no use.. teaching is better..
But all these while, I had not the least idea in 'furthering' my studies in teaching..
After my teacher told me that, I started to think.. izzit really performance have no use but teaching is the one for me?
Then I started to think why is that I wan to study Diploma?
and the answer I got is....
I wanted to further my studies in music... I wanted to further my interest in music.. I have interest in music and my only intention was to continue my interest.. nothing more.. simple as that.. I only wanted to persue my interest..
However, I now get to think more.. maybe I shouldn't go for performance but teaching.. maybe that's the right way..
Oh.. and that's one more thing.. my teacher also said that Diploma in teaching will be easier to pass than performance..
After hearing that, the first thing I thought of is that,
That's great! It add to the challenge..
But, it made me wanted to take performance more than ever.. haha..
Only, I'm worried whether my ability allow me to do so or not..
Anyway, I shouldn't be thinking so much for now.. as I haven found any place for me to study Diploma YET...........................................................................
not to mention the FEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO, the only solution is to find a way to MAKE MONEY..
then only think which path am I going to take..!
Monday, December 24, 2007
Saturday, December 22, 2007
this game requires patients and also intelligence.. and thus lead me to think..
sometimes, we as human, are also playing a game.. we travel near and far to achieve our goals in life.. we communicate with people so that we would not be lonely, we ask for help and and help others in return.. we also sacrifice something to achieve some other things.. we work hard to get the dream job and then try to reach the top of the world, we meet enemies and we try to subotage them.. we meet our mr/ms right and then decide to spend the rest of our lives with that person, which means, we get married..
all this happen in Maple story as well.. our character in the game did everything i mention above..
yup.. including getting married.
isn't just a perfect game? it's everything we did in real live..
come to think about it,
We are really playing a GAME..
the only difference of real live with the game is.. when the character in the game die.. that character will be revive and everything will still be the same..
however, in real live.. that would not happen even in millions of years..
so, we should always APPRECIATE LIVES..!!!
haha.. doesn't need to say why I abandoned my blog rite?..
anyway.. i know i had dissapoint many readers.. really sory.. and really and sincerly hope that you guys are still interested in my blog..
Saturday, December 15, 2007
1) it's not the 1st time performing at Presto's concert.. only parents as audience..
2) not performing solo.. it's a group ensemble
3) the pieces not hard..didn't even need to prepare before hand.. just 4 practises..
anyway, I kinda enjoy it.. compared to previous concert, this had to be the most enjoyable.. it was not really hard to play the piece and the song is really nice.. the most important part is that this time, I'm playing in an orchestra feel.. haha..
piano, violin, cello, drum and choir.. and I'm one of the 4 violinist.. haha..
it's great to be able to play in such group where there are different instruments.. fun!! I had been performing as a pianist with the violinist before, and also as a solo.. all that I'm really scare.. however, this is the 1st time performing without any worries.. funny.. mayb coz there are so many people together.. haha..
well, that's all for now.. gotta continue my work..
Monday, November 26, 2007
Friday, November 23, 2007
coz the few days ago, I just feel so stress and worried..
of coz the Models la..
just today, I went with Hooi Ling to college.. and see Ms. Chua..
at first I just feel so worried.. but after talking to her.. I feel so light hearted!!!!! yea! doesn't waste my energy making the model until 3am this morning..
and then, today went out with my primary school friends.. they are still the same.. haha.. cheerful and talkative..
however, they are so slim now.. T_T
I also have to work hard to take off all those FAT!!!!!
sory ya.. these few post seems a little boring.. but I just need a place to let out my feeling.. as I'm feeling a little tight these days.. thanks for bearing with my annoying complain and thoughts.. haha.. promised u guys I will blog about something interesting in a few days time.. haha..
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
well, there's good, there's bad..
that's for sure..
coz, that's what we called LIFE..
anyway, 1st thing 1st..
thanks for u guys support over my previous post.. really appreciate it.. *muaks!*
so, if anyone is wondering, i manage to blrup* out 2 models.. which I have no confidence at all.. but the tutor seems quite convince.. and I am in quite a pleasant mood..
I found out that the tutor was convinced in everyone concept and idea as well..
and then I began to worry.. haha.. things that goes so smoothly in tutorial might not be that good as you think.. just wait until presentation time.. haha..
then, some other thoughts..
I love BOOKS!
yep.. when books are in front of me, I can't resist the urge to just go and grab it..
One of my favourite fantasy is to have a room that I can design it to be my personal den complete with book shelves.. which are of coz.. full of BOOKS!!!
well, everyone got different interest.. some may love jewellery, some computers, other handphone, and also maybe clothes and accessories.. and me.. I love books!
not to say I don't like other things..
but when you put one rm100 clothes/bags/jewellery/accessories/etc.... and 1 rm100 BOOK in front of me.. guess which will I buy..
yup.. the Book!
coz that's my fav!
Some ppl say that I have a lot of money la.. sure can buy la.. they say they no money.. cannot buy.. and then just turn around and go and buy clothes.. *swt..
coz they love clothes! and I love books!
Then just why must it be that I have lots of money to spend on books and not say you have lots of money to spend on clothes?
I just don't get it.. WHY in the world is buying books means that I am wealthy? You guys spend money as well, you just don't spend it on books.. that's the only difference.. you may spend it on your favourite item as well.. so, does that make you wealthy as well? DOES IT???????????
Frankly speaking.. if buying a book mean to eat lesser for sometimes, I guess I will still buy it coz the book is just too tempting.. haha.. crazy feller..
This maybe coz buying a book give me the satisfaction that I can't get else where.. just the same as you spend ur precious money on something you love so much..
anyway, it's just some thought I can't understand.. I do have my worries about money.. Just don't think that I have all the money in the world when I buy more books than you do..
maybe next time I should just go buy books alone.. (if ever I can go alone..)
hmm.. going to meet up with 2 of my precious and most treasure primary schoolmates in friday.. ! (guess where? the place I went almost everyweek.. 1U la of coz.. haha..)
so long time never meet them.. haha.. a little worried also.. coz so long never meet sure will not really recognise and not that close already.. and may also have some communication problem.. coz during my primary we speak almost 90% english.. and then, just when I enter secondary.. almost 90% cantonese.. haha.. therefore.. hmm.. better brush up my speaking skills..(but can I do it in 1 day? '_' )
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Why do I actually in the 1st place choose to do this?
Why must I pressure myself?
Why must I forced myself to continue?
Why can't I just let go and let it be?
I hate to give up eventhough I can't perform well, eventhough I'm lazy..
When I decided to continue my piano lesson since I'm about 7, I did not plan to stop until I finish my grade 8..
When I started my violin lesson at 14, I had already know I will not give up until I've taken the Grade 8 as well..
When I decided to take up Interior Architecture and Design, I know I will not regret and give up no matter how hard it is..
However, I sometimes will ask myself,
Why must I forced myself if I feel that I can't do well in it?
It's true that I don't really did well in my piano.. partly, I did not practise enough, and also I might not have the talent you need to have..
and I might also say that I did not spend enough time on my violin practises as well. It's because I'm lazy and busy.. when I am free, I'm tired.. when I'm not tired, I'm lazy, when I'm not lazy, I'm busy.. since college life started, I even have lesser time.. therefore, the violin lesson did not really go well.. and when I spend sometime trying to get the perfect pitch.. I'm so fustrated.. coz no matter where I press, I could not get it in tuned.. this due to less practise..
therefore, I'm so stress.. and I started to think, why don't I just stop everything, and just continue with my college life.. but then, I'm stubborn.
I did not want to just give up like that.. I believe one day I may get the tune I want.. furthermore, I do have the interest in it.. It's only the matter of time, and if I stop now, I am sure I will regret sooner or later..
And also, one could not just live with the college life and no other right?
but you may ask
why must you choose something so stressful?
It's really fustrating when the exams are near.. and I need to get the pitch right, memorise the scales, brush up my sight-reading skill and also be more good in the aural test.. all these are just too much for me.. I admit that in the 1st place I did not really put much effort in it.. but I just can't put a full-stop in the lesson just because I'm lazy...
do I make sense?
okay, I guess I do not..
but nevermind.. I just feel like rambling some idiotic things...
I'm just tooooo stressful at this moment and I feel I need to let it out...!!!!!!
at this precious moment when I'm typing these nonsense, I ought to have been working with the models.!!!
ya.. it's those modelssssssss.....................
it's driving me crazy..
and leads me to think..
why if I hate to do this do I aim to complete this course?
why if I do not like to build models or draw or sketch or whatsoever, do I need to continue struggling?
well, I guess it's because that's my choice..
I've made the choice and I'm going to prove to not just anyone, but only to MYSELF that I'd make the right decision..
and I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
at first i tot there is a shop..
and got racks and racks and racks of paper display for u to choose...
and there got cash register...
and many people...
in the end..
it's a office building.. not shop..
it's only sample for u to choose.. no racks..
it's has only a clerk who use calculator and coin box to kira ur total.. no cash register..
it's only has a few workers and us choosing paper.. no people buy adi..
but then, really eye opener la... many types of paper.. haha... and I bought so much.. hav to apply for bankruptcy adi.. *sob*
anyway.. I've to sayy sorry to YY...
I'm not angry lo... only very worried.. haha.. I ntg geh.. not ur fault la.. u only go there once.. i wun blame u lo.. dun sad ar... i very 'loi gau' geh...
later need to spend more to buy more again..
anyone wanna learn piano?
come let me teach.. need to earn money adi..
Monday, November 12, 2007
anyway, relax.. this is not a post talking about the park...
I just wan to share some photos which I took tat day.. haha..
See the hole? wat else u see? haha..
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Sunday, November 4, 2007
alright.. remember the post I write about making lanterns?
well, here it is... all completed..
Our group were favour by most lecturers apparently since they voted ours as the winner... which means still some more touching up to do before sending it to the Duabelas competition at Perak.. aih..
and then, both Foong Wai's and Ryan's group were chosen too.. tie for the place.. so both have to touch up as well.. haha..
in the end, what we thought as the final became another beginning..
so, enjoy the pix..!
The motif on their group.. like it..
Foong Wai's group lantern's candle..
Ryan's group slim lantern.. interesting form!
The Big Happy Family...
Friday, November 2, 2007
alright.. I knew it the moment I ask that question..
It IS a SILLY question.. ya ya..
Answer me.. DO YOU SMILE????
Well, generally.. we do.. all of us smile..
we smile when we are happy.. we smile when we saw something funny... we smile when me want to greet some one.. we smile when we saw some one we knew and love..
we smile all the time..
why.. and I mean it..
WHY do we smile?
when does people in this world since long long long long long time ago start smilling when they are happy or they meet some loved ones???
and how does they found out that smile can cheer some one? or smile is a way to show we care and a sign of respect?
why does smilling have such great effect????
however, I went to look at Wikipedia, and I found out that, smile actually did not mean happy in the beginning.. during 30millions years ago.. research found that monkey actually smile when they are in fear.. well, maybe not really smile.. but it's like baring all its teeth.. well, that basically the initial smile.. haha..
anyway.. biologist seems to belief that smile had actually evolved from there into various way.. and most importantly in human..
maybe it's from there smile slowly evolved into a sign of happiness, love, pride..
hmm.. how can a sign of fear evolved into a sign of happiness?
haha.. well, my imagination is....
the human who meet the monkey..
and then, human was a little afraid.. coz human had not meet the monkey before..
and then, the monkey who saw the human, was also very afraid.. as it saw that the human was armed..
anyway.. as said.. when monkey are afraid, they bared their teeth.. so, that's basically what they did..
and then.. the human who was afraid.. now saw the monkey with its teeth..
the human look at the monkey and....................................
it tickles the human to see the monkey's teeth.. and this interested human so much that the human try to imitate the monkey..
that's the birth of smile.. smile of funny.. haha.. the monkey saw that the human meant no harm because when the human smile, his face became more pleasant and kind.. the monkey then walk.. or rather.. climb away.. haha.. so.. the human was so relief..
he then knew that when he smile.. like the monkey.. the monkey walk away.. the then look at himself in the river.. and saw his smilling face..
and he thought
'hmm.. I look quite handsome this way.. I'll keep to this face expression.. '
and then.. he walked back to his village in that manner.. and everyone who saw the human
and.. that's how smile became a sign of happiness..
haha... yea.. great.. happy ever after..!!
SMILE CAN ALWAYS BRING HAPPINESS TO EVERYONE..
SO.. KEEP SMILLING..
Saturday, October 27, 2007
I AM A CANNA!!!
haha.. and what's a canna? never heard of it b4.. hehe..
see the describtion below..
"You stand up for what you believe in, even if it gets in the way of what other people think. You are proud of yourself and your accomplishments and you enjoy letting people know that."
Friday, October 26, 2007
Ulp.. no? really no? u really haven't heard of it before? well, then, u must be living in the forest for years.. haha.. alright.. just kidding.. relaz... dun boycote me ok.. :)
anyway, small children, especially little gurls loved this fairy tales.. made famous by Disney.. the main character, Arial, the little mermaid.. who is dissatisfied with her live undersea went to the shore and saw Prince Eric and fell deeply in love with him.. and then.. in return for legs, she give up her beautiful voice to the evil witch, Ursula.. and then... blah blah.. Prince at last fell in love wif Arial, she get her beautiful voice back.. both live happily.. lovingly.. those typically love fairy tales.. sweet rightt? want to know more click HERE
however, I just read the original Little Mermaid.. and I found that the storyline is quite different.. and it's so sad.. (I know.. I am very ignorant.. now only read.. )
anyway.. the beginning storyline is quite similar.. Andersen depicted the surroundings of the underworld beautifully.. with all those seaweeds.. fishes.. palaces.. it's just so perfect.. haha.. ok,ok, back to the story..
the whole story seems perfect.. she meets her prince.. the prince have affections for her although she can't speak.. he seems to understand what is she trying to speak.. and she is trying to gain his love so that he will have her as her bride.. if not, on the morning after the prince marriage, she will turn in to bubbles foam in the sea.. and lost forever..
at first, the prince seems to love her.. and will not marry another.. but.. ah-hah..
but, in the end.. he meet the girl which he thought save his life during his ship wrecked. He fell in love with her instantly.. and the next day marry her.. and ask the mermaid to rejoice for him.. the little mermaid knew she had lost all her hopes.. her eyes was now being blinded by the death that was coming to her.. before the first ray of sun shine to earth, her sisters came up to the sea, and give her a knife to stab the prince death.. then his blood which drop to her legs will turn her back to tails and she can return to the underworld.. the mermaid went beside the sleeping prince.. and look at him.. she threw the knife away and fell to the sea.. she knew the prince love the princess.. not her.. and she love him too much to hurt him..
she fade into the sea.. into foams.. the next morning saw the prince and her princess looking for the mermaid.. the little mermaid smiled unseen by the prince..
luckily Disney did not depict the story exactly as it is.. if not.. all children hopes will crush.. Maybe that the way reality is.. however, it wouldn't hurt to have some hopes now and then right? hmm.. it's really sad.. the little mermaid give up so much just to be with the prince she save from the wreck.. only to become a bubble foam in the end.. where's the fairness in it? but, that's what love is.. all fair and square in love.. is that true?
love is often blind.. that's wat people say..
how true is that?
how hurt will one be when her hopes are crush by their lover?
how much time will they take to heal their heart?
how many people actually had not been hurt by their partner?
how come the partner never learn that females often need more attention and sensitive care?
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Anyway.. the purpose of this post is...
I am now starting my own 1001 Fantasie
yup.. I am going to 'compose' (cheh..) 1001 stories.. haha.. are you guys gonna read?
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Nice shadow on the wall.. love it..
This is my drink.. Ice Longan >> haha.. dun really look like those typical Ice longan huh? but taste acceptable la.. mind u.. it's worth RM5..
The TomYam meehoon.. haha.. ok ok la.. still prefer the tomyam at Black Canyon.. haha..so long never eat there adi.. must go..
Thursday, October 18, 2007
final outcome... yea... can 'sau gong' (finish work)
Back to the apartment... guess whose hand?
Here's a poor kitty.. crying.. dunno why.. look so sick.. mayb being soak by rain.. poor thing..