Monday Blue

It's just some random talk with one of my friend just now.. about tomorrow being Monday blues.

And I mentioned to her that in actual fact, every working day will be BLUE. The only difference is there is a different shades of blues for everyday.

She agreed and say that Monday has the darkest blue of all. XD

It leads me to think that isn't that true? No matter whether you love your job or not, as long as you know you are going the spend your day at work and not being able to do things you wanted to do, it will be tough. Love your job and it might be a lighter blue. But still blue.

Holiday? Red? or Pink?

But then, those traditional tear-off calender.. weekdays are always green and weekends are red. That is why everytime I see red I feel happy and excited. But then, I never hated green. Haha.. Ok..a little out of topic.

It's just that I had not written anything for quite sometime and I think it is time I resume writing as this is the only place I can pour my heart into and not worry about whether I get my grammar or tenses right. I just want to rant.

Thank you.

16th March 2012

I guess I'm still living in my dreams. Feeling all excited about many things, feeling energetic to do various task but in the end, I just lie there and dream.

My Travelogue

I've just cleaned up my blog a little and compiled some of my entries regarding my travelling experience together. Click into it to have a look?  ^_^

It's at the left side bar.. with the word TRAVELOGUE.

Or if you are really lazy, click here will do.

Excited + Scared + Worried = Nervous Breakdown

Ok..So tomorrow is the day for the interview. I'm having some very very very nervous mood these few days and in order to relax myself, I choose to ignore it. Until the very last minute. So now. What do I wear? How do I make my hair? What should I speak? How should my presentation go? How???!!!!

Scare scare scare scare scare.

And it does not help that knowing I'm not fully prepare for it.

Am I really ready for the challenge?!

Wish me luck guys.

Colours

I just love the colours of the pie chart.

Just log in to Nuffnang and check my analysis. Found this pie chart with the colourful segments.. Tell myself I just have to blog about this.. 



Don't it remind you of some rainbow or what? I'm curious. 

Does colours affect your mood? Do you dress according to your mood? As if, when you are happy, you choose something bright and colourful and if you are moody, you choose something dark?

Or do you do the opposite?

Choosing bright colours to brighten your mood when you are moody?

Hmm.. I wonder... 

Random Musing

Today is 2nd June, 2011 - Thursday.

It is 9.40pm at night in Nottingham.

The sky is still bright outside.

I love this experience.

It made me feel I still have a lot of time.

Photo of the day.

The View Outside My Window @ 9.40pm

My Japanese Name

I always wonder what Japanese name I could have. It seems such a nice type of name. And out of boredom, I found this website that translate my name into Japanese.

Hamano Kumiko

Sounds nice?


^^


My authentic japanese name is 浜野 Hamano (seaside field) 久美子 Kumiko (eternal beautiful child).
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Day 30

It has been 30 days since I reach Nottingham, UK. Time do flies don't they? At times, it seems like there are so long until the day I can fly back to Malaysia. On the other hand, without me realising, I had already been on my own for 30days. I pass each day by itself. Spending the morning mostly browsing Facebook to check on my friends, play so games, eat some breakfast and then prepare to go for class. If I have an evening class, I will then skype with my family before going for class. During night time, I would feel the emptiness in my room when all my friends had already sleep. I will then watch drama until I'm sleepy.

This had been a routine for the pass 30days. I started to feel that I did not come here to study. I come here to experience life alone. I spent the days sleeping, eating and watching pps. That's all I do.

Without realising, I had been living like this for 30days. How can I continue to live like this? I have to make up my mind to be more responsible. Not just eat and sleep.

However, I really do not know what can I do besides all that. Right now, my assignment aren't really tight yet. And I've been slacking a little. I start to wonder what will happen when deadline approach.

After 30days, I start to think of the times when I could just wear a short pants or skirt with a t-shirt and go out..whether shopping or studying. However, for the 30days here, I have been putting on heavy coat and scarf before walking out of my room. In the beginning, it seems fun. Now, it is a drag. I feel really frustrated with the weather. Walking in the cold wind is bad.. but reaching the Uni building which is warm is more bad. Cause it make me colder after 2 hours inside and I need to walk home again.

I miss the time when I can just go anywhere I like anytime. I wanted to go shopping and eat anything I desire and spent the time laughing with my friends.

Shopping here just isn't that fun. All because I need to watch my purse, or rather, my card and all things seem to be heavy and bulky. I couldn't buy any ornaments I found cute cause I couldn't possibly bring them back to Malaysia. Some coats I found and I really like but it just doesn't make sense to buy so many coats as I only need them for 10 months. Back in Malaysia, I wouldn't even thought of wearing them. Besides, the coats are really heavy and it would be problems when I'm packing that time.

With all this worries, how can I shop with enjoyment? Not to mention I walk inside this shopping centre everyday. This building serve as a 'tunnel' between my home and Uni. What fun it is to go during the weekend? I walk in it everyday which in another words means, I shop everyday. There's nothing special about weekend now beside it means housework, grocery shopping and watching drama whole day. Sunday doesn't seem special now since it is the same as any other day.

This doesn't sound good right?

I hope this depress mood is just passing by. I wouldn't want to spent the next 10 months depressing. In actual fact, I feel much happier when I am outside either walking all around without motive or in Uni. At least, I'm with people and there's things happening. Inside my room, I would just facebook, blog, drama, eat and sleep. This beside making me depress, it make me fat and lazy.

=.="

Dreams

Know what?

Ever since I know how to read and write, I've always dream of being a writer. Not those dream you have when you sleep okay? ^^"

When I'm in school, I will often write short little stories. And I mean it.. really really SHORT. Maybe just a page or 2 or 3 long. Haha.. The storyline will mostly be my own fantasy. I write it out of interest and when I read them again years later, I found that those stories are really innocent, and stupid. *blush*

I would think of re-write it again but then, when I take up my pen, I couldn't start. Those stories are my childhood's work and I couldn't write the same thing again with correct grammar and etc. The style is different and thus, I did not alter them. Put them back into my cupboard and take out another notepad and start a different story.

However, all my stories are like essays we write while in school. Just 2-3 pages long. Nothing much to shout about. Therefore, I often wonder how does those people write and write and could publish it into a book? I could never do that. =.="

I read articles about how to write short stories/novels and I noticed that first, I have to know my storyline very well. And then, develop my characters. Then I know my problem. I know my storyline. I know my character. But they do not know me and therefore, my character couldn't communicate with me so my storyline could go on forever. They are stranger to me. They would just appear and say Hi, and then Bye and that's all.

This is sad.

I always wanted my story to be able to receive real critics but I do not even have any story for people to critic. Isn't it pathetic? I often wanted to do something, but after a night, I will lose my interest. This is really my weakness. Could I possibly amend it?

Like now.. while watching drama on PPS, I suddenly had the urge to blog..all because the character in the drama blogs. =.="""

This is terrible. I could be distracted very very easily. This is no good.

Maybe..Just maybe, one day, you would see my story somewhere.. in print!  ^.^

Google translator is the best!

"So far in August, a lot of things happen, there is music, an evil, pregnant, in their hearts, just want to feel, do not want to say. "

I went to one of my favourite blog just now, (I will not reveal which but if you happened to read my blog.. I hope you don't mind me taking your words ya... ^_^) and she writes in chinese. I can read some and some words are hard. The words she choose to write is so difficult that I had no choice but ask Google to translate it for me. And this is one of the sentence I read which makes my eye goes BIG and ROUND...


I don't understand so I select to see the original words. And this is what she originally written..

"从八月至今，很多事情发生，有乐，有悲，有喜，在心头，只想感觉，不想说出。 "

And I went

And then

And thus I plan to blog. 

It's really a wonderful translation. 

For those who doesn't understand, 有喜 in chinese means happiness and often when someone is pregnant, they will say 有喜 coz it's a happy occasion. I never know Google really translate that. Haha.. 

The correct translation of what she writes is suppose to be there is joy, there is sad, there is happiness. Ya ya.. I know joy and happy is suppose to be different, but in chinese writings it's a different expression. Haha.. Oh well, I'm not a qualified translator, I'm just translating what I understand. Haha..

Anyway, thumbs up to google. I thought Google often direct translate a word.. not expecting it to translate 有喜 into pregnant. Google is not wrong. It's too smart. ^_^

Demon of the Angel

*Demon of the Angel*

Out of boredom, I did this. But I need to clarify something.. it's not a depiction of me. This is Demon of the Angel. Cheers!

No wonder

Rememeber I wrote about Friday blue hours ago? Now I know why.

Reason No 1
No more meeting up with old friend as she have something more important to handle. Besides..

Reason No 2
Weekend is not weekend already. I will be going back to work and that means re-arranging my class to Sunday. Mana ada weekend?

Reason No 3
I finally get the long awaited offer letter from NTU. Now I'm doubting my decision. Should I go or shouldn't I? Part of me wanted to go very much but I foresee I will be homesick very much as well.. T.T

Reason No 4
Due to all the above, I've cancel the yum cha session with my old school friend.



There! No wonder Friday blue. I'm already feeling something is coming. It's just that it have not reach. Now that I know, I don't know what to do.

Hoo...~~~~~

Feeling a little blue

I shouldn't feel blue today.

No. 1 reason
Today is Friday. Weekend is starting. I'm meeting my old friend tomorrow for lunch and a little shopping. After that, I'm going to meet up with my collegemates whom we did not really have a chance to sit and chat and laugh.. for months.. I'm going to have a good rest this weekend.

No. 2 reason
This post is number 200th post in Cassie The Missy. I never realised it until I saw the 'dashboard'. Time really flies. I still remember I am waiting and celebrating my 100th post. *sigh* Since I have achieved another 100 posts, I should be in cloud nine celebrating.

No. 3 reason
I am going to have a yum cha session with another old schoolmate after my class tonight. We are going to catch up on each other. There's so many things to talk about and I'm looking forward to tonight.



So, why am I feeling blue? I thought only Monday have blue and Friday is suppose to be Pink, or maybe Yellow? Especially when there's so many fun things going on in the weekend, aren't I suppose to be rejoice?

I hope I am.

I still feel a tad of blue in my mood today. I feel like there's something missing which is crucial to make my day Pink. However, I couldn't amend it. I couldn't find the lost 'key'. I couldn't open the door to let the Pink light into this blue room.

At this very moment, after blog-hopping since 1.30pm, I am going to get mouldy. I have no one to talk to and no one seems want to talk to me. I have nothing to do and I don't want to do anything. My mood is thrown into the dump and no one helps me to retrieved it. Me? I'm lazy.

Writing have always help me to release my stress. I will pour everything here. Poor blog, I have burden you with so much trouble. I'm really glad to have you all these while. I still remember the time when you are sick and I couldn't access you. I miss you so much that time. I nearly cry. I have so many 'darling, precious' memory in you that I couldn't accept if I loses you. Thank goodness you recovered. Thanks for continuing to listen to my rants.

On the other note, I've been reading the Time Traveller's Wife these days. I'm really touched by the affection Henry have for his wife. He would go to the extend to make her happy. To make her feel loved. Clare is so fortunate. How many people would sacrifice to have someone like Henry to love and care?

I guess I'm really having a terrible blue. Dark blue. Dear dear.. should just stop ranting here. Writing about the book make think of many things. Dark blue is going to turn Black if I am not careful.




PS. and I notice that Nuffnang will stop putting ad on my blog from time to time, and just show Nuffnang blue banner there..which makes me think.. am I actually doing FREE advertisement for Nuffnang? Afterall, when there isn't any ad, all readers can see is their logo. So, everyone know Nuffnang, but I am not getting paid for advertising FOR nuffnang.. (am I making sense or am I too blue today?)

Musical Architecture

Musical Architecture

Was browsing through my hard disk and found some of the works I done during my final year. This is the poster for my dissertation which is about Musical Architecture.

First Commentor

I have been browsing through the blogsphere and notice the first comentor link and I found it to be quite interesting. Although it seems funny that I'm doing this as I don't have any comments at all for my post.. But since I'm too free at office nowadays, I've decided to try it out. Afterall, I don't think I have anything to lose... Haha...

Therefore, if you guys want to have a free linky then comment now! Haha.. That's another excuse if mine to encourage you guys to leave a comment for me after reading my blog.. Haha.. (yea... I'm so desperate for a comment.... LoL)

Anyway, this post is writen using iPhone so no graphics nor photos... I'm currently typing everything using 1 finger and I'm starting to get tired. Still, I have to congratulate myself as I'm becoming more fast in typing with my iPhone keypad... At the beginning, I'm really complaining cause I couldn't type without making mistake.. But now... I'm able to write a whole post and with acceptable mistake and with good speed... Haha.. I guess I'm improving then.. How I hope my technique in playing the piano and violin can improved as well.......

我不是100%的BANANA

没错!  不要以为我不会华语。。

人生那么复杂，睢能决定我的命运？ 可能未来的我是一个很成功的华文老师？或是一位成功的翻译人？ 睢能说呢？

ok啦。。 我的华语真的是半痛水而已。。。哈哈。。 笑吧。。 我也觉得很好笑。。 认识我的朋友们。。。也看了我的facebook。。 也笑了一大餐。。我自己也笑到要去厕所笑。。 但，这个笑话真的好好的回忆。。大家也放松了。。那么好！ 你们要谢谢我哦。。 哈哈。。

好啦。。 我都不知道还要说什么了。。哈哈。。看来我的华语还要很努力的练习练习。。。

拜拜啦。。

Brand New Leaf

Alrite peoples.. I've finally change my layout AGAIN.. this time with a more greener feel..

Still in the midst of updating the design. So bear with me if anything weird pops up or you see something that's not suppose to be there.. Haha..

I am already very very hardworking. Juggling between my music career and design career.. Just last Saturday, I went for the Chopin competition Open Day to perform a duet with Chee Kwai. And the result is depressing as disaster struck. We played.. I mean, I played badly. Did not synchronize together at all. Partly due to my fault of being stage fright and the GrandPiano soo different feel from my Petrof.. Anyway, we've vow to practice very much harder for July competition when we will be flying to Hong Kong. 2 weeks there and I am aiming to play my best and shop my best!

Oh yes! I am going to shop till I drop. The 1st time there I did not browse many things as winter is approaching and therefore many winter apparels and blah blah.. this time is summer.. so should be many interesting items..! I'm really looking forward towards it. Haha..


And of coz, I'm preparing to sweat. Haha..

Rounds of 1st time again

I remember talking about my 1st time many post back. Today, there are more 1st time coming.. Haha

1. Shoes soles completely spoil and stain whole of my house garden tiles, car and road

2. Went jogging at 7am

3. Listen to ipod while jogging

4. Went to market by myself to buy vegetables

5. Raining on my 1st time to market

6. Driving to work in the rain (1st time since I started working.. normally it either just finish rain or rain after I reach)

7. Using an umbrella to reach the office (normally I would just run to the cover.. But I guess is coz I've just bought a HELLO KITTY umbrella. ^^)

Hmm.. so many 1st time.. and now it's only 10 in the morning. I wonder what's install for me today. ^^

Comfirm

It's Confirm!

Tickets are bought! But luggage is not pack. Leave have not applied. Pieces have not been practice...

So.. hmm.. It's not confirm.. Lol..

But since the tickets' bought.. I guess it could be consider as confirm rite??


I'm leaving on the 19th of July 2010  and will be back on the 31st July 2010.


2 months till then...

I suppose I still have time to prepare myself for the competition.. Haha.. Wish me luck guys!


^.^


Btw, I've submit my application for NTU.. Hope to hear the news soon.^.^

Monday Blues

Today is Tuesday. I have Monday blues yesterday. But Tuesday. I don't have Tuesday Blues. Because no one ever say Tuesday blues. Why will we have Monday blues? Is it because we play so hard on the weekends that when we start our daily normal boring mundane routine on Monday we gets the blues? So then, why must it be blues? Why blue? Why not green or brown or even black?

Monday blue often relate to no mood, boring, not motivated.. But blue isn't suppose to be so negative right???

The sky are blue.

Everyone loves the sky. Don't you? Well, if we love the sky, which is blue in colour, why relate blue to the negative vibes in Monday? WHY???

It seems so unfair to blue. 

Maybe we should give some credits to blue.

Blue represent unity. Blue often bring calm emo. Blue is uniform that we wear since we are 7. Blue is a part of our National Flag colour. Blue is a part of our world. Blue is bored..........................







。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

OMG..





Did I just say blue is bored???

OMG OMG OMG......



Welllll......

hu hu..~ ~ ~

I'm human afterall.. After talking about blue for sooo long.. I do feel BORED!

Therefore.. let's keep Monday Blues afterall.. It's the tradition.. Monday will always be blue..

Unless of coz, it's a holiday.. 

Then I'll be 

Btw, did you heard of Baby Blues? It's a cute and funny comic strip. I love this comic strip. It's all about a family of 5.. it started with 3 actually.. haha.. simple yet entertaining.. I used to catch it at NST everyday but since I've change to The Star, no more Baby Blues but Garfield now.. wahaha.. 

Anyway, I still read the Baby Blues on the net. Wonderful! 

So, why Baby Blues? 

Ask any mother and they will tell you why.. 

Oh.. by now, you all should know what this post is all about.. Nope.. it isn't about Blues.. it is about..

Yup!

These cute graphics. 

Just wanted to use them but no one to chat on msn with me right now.

No choice.

The End