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there's nothing better than a simple smile to make your day

hmm.. enough of those rubbish in the previous post.. just wan to let it out.. i really feel better now..

therefore wanted to write about something happier...


erm.. lets see..

maybe.. about people around me??

haha..


friends..
i have.. quite a handful.. maybe a lot if you count those hi-bye friends..

but those that laugh and cry together.. just maybe less than a handful..

if you count those friends that cry together.. even less.. mayb none.. i dunno..


sometimes, i just feel so hard to talk about my inner feelings.. even to my family.. maybe is my pride? or i just don't want to let them know.. i dun really know..

most often, i blacken my face infront of my friends.. and i hate myself for it.. often when i think back how often i did this.. i feel like crying.. i dun really know why.. i just hate myself!

many times, i had tell myself.. just keep smilling.. even if bad mood.. also keep smilling.. dun blacken your face.. or you will kick away all your friends..

most of the time i dun succeed.. which i really angry with myself..

therefore, it resulted in not having much friends.. my fault.. !




argh!!!

how come this post become another moody post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

悪い女