Monday, May 5, 2008

untitled....

there's nothing better than a simple smile to make your day

hmm.. enough of those rubbish in the previous post.. just wan to let it out.. i really feel better now..

therefore wanted to write about something happier...


erm.. lets see..

maybe.. about people around me??

haha..


friends..
i have.. quite a handful.. maybe a lot if you count those hi-bye friends..

but those that laugh and cry together.. just maybe less than a handful..

if you count those friends that cry together.. even less.. mayb none.. i dunno..


sometimes, i just feel so hard to talk about my inner feelings.. even to my family.. maybe is my pride? or i just don't want to let them know.. i dun really know..

most often, i blacken my face infront of my friends.. and i hate myself for it.. often when i think back how often i did this.. i feel like crying.. i dun really know why.. i just hate myself!

many times, i had tell myself.. just keep smilling.. even if bad mood.. also keep smilling.. dun blacken your face.. or you will kick away all your friends..

most of the time i dun succeed.. which i really angry with myself..

therefore, it resulted in not having much friends.. my fault.. !




argh!!!

how come this post become another moody post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

悪い女

2 comments:

candy said...

real fren is that u no need to hide urself infront of them...
u can just show ur feeling and emotion...they will understand...
just that, in order to let u alone n unhappy,they hope u can say out ur feeling so that they can share with u...
everyone got their own emotion and the way they express it..so, just be comfortable with ur fren and be urself...
remember, fren is always b ur side.. and at least, u hv 3 of us as ur good good fren..dun forget o^^ relax and be happy...
we have to support each other...
smile :)

Cassie the Missy said...

thanks! u know.. sometimes, understanding these 'theories' is very easy.. but doing it is extremely difficult.. i will ganbateh!