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well.. see the title?

UNTITLED!

which means...






i dunno what title to put...!

anyway... just back from college after being there for only 2 hours... for the tutorial lo... ms rosidah... tense la... have a feeling since this morning 1am, that she will have a lot to not buy my model... and i try to alter here a little, there a little.. but still can't get any idea... going mad... haha...

and boy... i am half right... she say my form is alright... but not the ceiling, the space and the stained glass... so...? haha... very helpless.. anyway, she gave me some quite inspiring ideas... but i am not sure whether she copyrighted here ideas before giving it to me or not... if yes, i am dead meat... haha...

oh ya... brought Lucky back today... smells terrible but love him terrible also.. haha... have to bath him tomolo... but he's still not in a tip top condition... still the moody and sleepy type... no strength... of coz la... been in drip for 7 days... poke at both hand... both swollen... then at the leg... now pain... so heartache... will have to bring him back on tuesday for follow up... his parasites isn't really cleared yet... so sad... anyway, glad to have him back... have been so lonely for the whole week.. and no one can understand what am i feeling...

so.. there are a few consequences of Lucky being hospitalize... or should i say 'clinicalize'...? (is there this word?)

1st... i realized that i am lonely...
2nd... i realized that i am too attached to him
3rd... no more money... (any way that u guys can help me to find some jobs that would not interfere wif my classes???????)


lastly... what i want to say is dedicated to Mr Ryan... if he comes here and read this...
i did update my blog ya..! haha... it's just that i couldn't find anything to write about for a long long long time... haha... and remember the Holy Rosary pix! (if u see this by 2 of April!)

so long...!

He's BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HE'S BACK! HE'S BACK!!!

LUCKY come back home adi!!!!!! yea... dirty but happy!!!!!!!!!!!!

Little Woman

hmm... recently.. well.. actually not quite recently.. but i hav read this book a few times... and just sometimes ago, i read it again... and i found that no matter how many times i read it, it still capture my interest!

It is quite a big big (or rather.. thick) book... as it consists of two parts of the story.. kind of continuation.. it is available in separate books but the one i bought is combined together.. therefore it is thicker than ur average dictionary!! haha...

anyway... the plot starts with the introducing the four March sisters brooding over their not so cheerful Christmas.. father volunteering at the war.. family poor... anyway.. these 4 sisters comforted each other and remind themselves that they are actually much more happier than most people... some of them so poor that they have spoilt roof, no fire in their grates, no Christmas dinner available...

okay.. it's boring.. but to make the story short... it is actually a story about these 4 sisters who stand by each other during difficult times... how they actually grow up into 4 elegant young woman and so on... since this book is thick.... the author actually brings us reader into their daily life until all of them grow up and happily married.. how they faces consequences in lifes... how they earn their places in society... how they tactfully manage their love life... how they actually learn to face death... it is actually a book that brings the reader from the start of the 4 sisters childhood till their motherhood...

and while it maybe boring at the start.. (as all books are..) one will not feel like putting down the book once they started on it... some parts of it is funny.. comical... some are sad.. sober.. serious.. some are romantic.. sweet... yup... i nearly shade a tear while reading one part of it.. (dun laugh ya...!)

Little Woman by Louisa May Alcott... one of my favourite..

ok... one of my boring blog again... forgive me ya...! i guess i can't really express my feelings about this book well.. i will work hard on my language... :(

so long...

p/s >>> i still miss 'him' !!!

inner feelings

it's weird... deep down i feel sad... feel insecure... feel lonely... in spite of all the people around me... my family, friends... it's just that i really miss 'him'. i never know how much time i had spent wif 'him' until that moment... i still joke and laugh normally.. but when alone.. especially during at night... it's hard... i really miss 'his' presence... i will really take good care and cherish 'him' when 'he' come back... i hope it will be soon...


meanwhile... the college assignment is driving me crazy... today.. tutorial for essay plan... then go back work on the perspective.. the most terrible part.. the staircase... then tomolo continue working on it... due on thurs... ink in tracing paper... fri.. tutorial for the DP1 final model... hav to show her the butter paper drawing... the final sketch model.. all which i haven started on... it's really weird... when u r free.. u r really damm free... but when u r busy... watch out.. u wun hav time even to stop to take a breath of air... really... i am not exagerating... it's the truth... i do not lie... never... (cheh...)

anyway.. that's it... however, i am really looking forward to the sem break... we r going to genting.. the the (chinese word) 'pun san'... (get it? pun san... poon san...boon san!) haha... ok la... she's going to kill me for this.. if she ever come to my blog.. haha... anyway... it at the gotong jaya... middle of genting.. an apartment.. together wif our foundation gang.. if everyone comfirm going.. haha... still planing.. great fun! looking forward towards it..! (yea.!! cheers...)

update

long time no blog... many things happened...
happy... sad...

i now notice that even though there are thousand of happy event, it could not even match one tiny sad event if that event invlove something or someone u love and treasure very much...

as it is, i hav no mood to do anything.. and i hav thousand of assignment waiting for me... i did some and then stop... it's just no good! i could not concentrate... i am going mad...