How do I fare in fronts of you?

Are opinion really important?

Does it really matter what other people think of me? Think of my decision? Think of my action? Think of my thinking?

Does it???

Many would say

NO

Everyone knows.

Everyone says the similar.

"The most important things is what you think no what other people think"

I know.

Cause that's what I tell other people as well.

But

When you come to reality, IT DOES MATTER.

We are living in a society. A society that contains millions of other people with trillions of different opinions, thoughts and life philosophy. 

So, why do we need to care what those trillions people are thinking about? We are who we are. So the only one matters should be only ourselves. 

Right?

Wrong..

You are wrong.

For example,

C know she's making the right decision. People around her support her. Tell her to go ahead. Another batch of people around her tells her that it is 'unrasional' to do that. They say it is not the way to live in the society. 

C wants to continue with her decision. She wanted to ignore the negative feedback and continue. But in the end, after the decision is made, those batch of negative comment people, will look down on her. If they are not willing to accept her decision, she will lose those batch of people around her. In short, she loses friends and mentors.

What does she gain then? 

Nothing.

However, if she accepted the negative comments from that batch of people, she will not lose them. She will still continue to be in the circle. She would still have them around. While people that support her will still support her as that's what they do. Support her decision. So if C decision is similar to the batch that's giving negative comment, it makes the people who support her have similar comments in the end.

C + A = B

It's confusing.

It does to me. 

Is it true? Is it worth risking everything just for the sake of making only me happy?

Is it worth being selfish?

I have already been selfish for so long. 

Is it time to stop and be what others want me to be?

Is it time to stop thinking of myself and think of others?

Is it time to let go?

Is it?

*is it the beginning or the ending?*
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*it's the beginning, it's also the ending.*