Reminiscing (Just ranting~)

I was browsing through my photo albums.. photos taken last year.. in UK. Suddenly feel teary eyes. I just fully realised I not only missed my life as a student at Nottingham. I also miss all my friends that I met there, the activities that I do there, the experience that I really really enjoyed. I do wonder.. maybe I should have stay at UK. I don't know. 

A Day At The Airport

"A Day at the Airport

I am at the Heathrow Terminal 4 waiting for departure tonight at 10pm. It is currently 2o’clock in the afternoon. I had already been sitting here for the past 2 hours. Being alone in the airport waiting for departure is the first time experience for me. Never before had I take a flight on my own before. Not even when I’m leaving home for my studies last year, this time. I am both excited and worry as there is no one to talk to if I need some advice or help. Now, I feel so bored. I do not dare to use my ipod much since I still need that when I get into the plane. Just in case I couldn’t fall asleep. 12 hours of flight without anyone to talk to. Well, everything has the first time anyway.

Being here alone, forces me to be so independent. I had to decide for myself where to go and what to do. It make me feel so proud of myself that I am able to do that. Though, now I am quite worry what will happened when I’m going into the check-in counter with my overweight luggage. I had been estimating that it will cost me about £500 for the extra 10kg+ weight. Oh dear me, that’s really a lot. I don’t know where all the weight goes to. It is about 30kg.

Oh dear dear dear me. I had been digressing had I?

This article was supposed to be about what I had observed during my hours at the airport. Not about my luggage. Okay, crap aside.

First of all, I noticed many people seem to be with a  friend, or better, a group of friends or family. That makes me jealous. I want my family and friends. Okay, I will be meeting them in about..20 hours’ time. So, just be patient. Everyone looks like they are going home after a holiday since most of them here doesn’t seem to be local. I might be wrong, but well, that’s what I’d noticed.

On fairer note, there’s quite a lot of solo traveler as well. And most of them, very smartly, have either a newspaper, a book, a laptop or an iphone with them. Stupid me, do not have a newspaper, neither do I have a book due to the excess luggage I have, and since I had lost my iphone at Barcelona, I’m only left with this laptop I’m writing this article, without any wifi, and therefore I couldn’t connect with the outer world.  Hmm.. Sounds like, I’m not doing too bad as well yea?

Then, I also noted quite a lot of Asian. I’m quite bad at recognizing Chinese, Vietnamise, Thai, Malaysian or whatever it is, unless they speak. However, upon looking at them, I feel that the world had really advanced. Everyone now can be anywhere they want to be. What else can be hidden by anyone? No one can hide anything from anyone anymore. Crapping again am I?

Crap crap and crap, there goes 500words. By repeating the crap word, I have added another three to the amount. Who say it is so hard to write? Writing is the most easier thing to do, provided no one need to grade you for what you have written. Which is why, I suppose, blogging had been such a good fad nowadays. With blogging being so simple and fun, everyone, even people who don’t like to write, will write. Everyone shares and shares about their thoughts, their daily activities and experiences, their jobs, their skills and etc etc.

I think I really can continue to write and write and write. While the initial idea of writing this is to write about my observation of the surrounding, it lead me to crap about other stuff. I can never stick to something. See? I’m digressing again.

Talking about digressing, it is one of the word that I’ve learnt at NTU few months ago and I had keep using it for absolutely everything. This shows that I am a person who really love to digress. But, don’t you think digressing is a pretty nice way to generate ideas? Of course, after you digress, you will have to organize them. I tend to think digressing is something like mind-mapping. Well, you are talking about a certain topic, and then that topic you are talking about makes you think of some other thing. And one thing leads to another. Isn’t that how it should work in mind-mapping? You write the big topic at the middle, and write all kind of words that topic makes you think of. Whether it is good or not, it is what mind-mapping should be. Generating ideas. So, isn’t digressing a kind of ‘idea-generator-method’ as well?

I seem to be finding excuses for my own fault. But, I love to digress. It make me feel like I have been through a walk inside my mind and look at things that I have not yet found that I have inside. It’s really cool actually. Not if this article was to be seen by my teachers. They will be horrified at what I’ve written. Nothing is consistent and grammar errors are here and there. Horrible.  That is why blogging is such a fun for me. I get to write what I want and will not get graded for it. My blog is not that famous and therefore it doesn’t really matter what the content is about. Even if there’s a stranger reading this, I suppose he or she will have to bear with me. Cause I’ve decided that this will be the style of my blog.

Anyway, at the top of my blog, I’ve already stated, ‘Nothing is consistent and so if life’. Well, it is true isn’t it? Nothing is consistent. You can be running at this moment, aimed to run for 5 miles. Suddenly just 10minutes through your run, you met a friend. He began to greet and talk to you. You stop and chat a while. A short chat might lead to you following your friend to a coffee shop where he is heading towards. After another hearty chat and aromatic cappuccino and delicious croissant, you say goodbye to each other and head home. On the way home, you just realized, you have just run for 10minutes. Told ya, nothing is consistent. Never be so sure.

See???

I digress again. Well, I’m loving it.

I guess I have to stop writing as the battery is running low. I can’t have it drained out since I might need it later. So, I will stop now and the next article might hopefully be at KL with me well refreshed without any jet lag.

26^th September 2011 @ 2.48pm @ Heathrow Terminal 4" 

What do I want?

It had been almost a week since I'm back from my Europe trip. And I've just noticed I had neglected this blog for a long time..nearly 2 months. Time really does flies. While writing the previous post, I'm still saying goodbyes to my lecturers and classmates. I'm still with Fiola and Xian. Still there's a few classmates left around to have dinner together. There's still SC to look forward to. Still the Europe trip to enjoy.

Now

I am all alone already.

Said bye to Fiola the day I met SC.
Said bye to Xian the day we left for Europe.
Said bye to SC just few days ago.

Time really does flies.

Now, I'm counting the days left for me to fly back Malaysia. I started to miss everyone so much. By everyone, I means friends and family, both UK and Malaysia. After SC left, I am so free and bored. Nothing to do. Nothing to explore. Only left packing which can't be done until almost the last few days.

Today, I walked around the city center just to past time. Walk and walk, with my headphone on. Since I'm alone, I doesn't want to feel the loneliness, I need some music. (I never needed those weeks ago.) Past by random shops, and memories floods into my mind. How we use to shop like crazy in H&M, how we use to mused over the silly designs of novelty products, how to use to have some cheap lunch at the bar, how we use to just walk around, just to spend the Saturday afternoon together, and then back home for steamboat. I really miss those time now. Never realised, I was so lucky. To have them around me, to talk to, to laugh together, to discuss problems. Now that everyone is back home, I wonder, why am I still here?

Mom and Dad ask me whether I want to just change the ticket to an earlier date since I've nothing to do here. But, I'm quite reluctant to leave as well. I'm not sure what I wanted to do here anymore, since, there's really nothing to do. I can't shop because it will be impossible to bring back more stuff (as my luggage is already overweight), I do not have any assignment, I don't have anyone to ask for lunch. What else left to do here? I really don't know.

To settle the bank account, to pack stuff?

I'm not sure.

I'm just.. not ready to leave this place yet. This place which have given me so much experience and memories. This place which I never thought I would love and be comfortable living in.

Don't get me wrong though. I miss my home. I wanted to be home. I miss my family and my dear friends back home. I wanted to eat so many type of foods, and to enjoy the comfort of my messy room. It's just that, I know I will not be back here to live like I do now, that make me reluctant to just pack and go.

Back home, there's many realities waiting for me to face. Am I ready for them yet? I've been avoiding them for a year now. Do I still want to avoid them? Can I avoid them forever? Or, will the reality actually doesn't hurt if I face them bravely? Should I?

I really don't know.

Suddenly, I feel, I'm at the crossroad again.

The same poem applies to me again.

The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair, 

And having perhaps the better claim

Because it was grassy and wanted wear,

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I marked the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,

I took the one less traveled by,

And that had made all the difference.

If I'm going to take the one less traveled by, will that changed everything? Will I think to myself; ages and ages hence, I took the one less traveled by and it had caused everything today.

Saying "Goodbyes" and Promising "See You"

Finally it really really really reached the end of my postgraduate course. Got our result and feedback. Final tutorial at our room Maudslay 231b. Pack up stuff at the Expo. Saying goodbyes all around. Taking photos with people I will miss.

1st complete group photo

With the most helpful technician at workshop - Kerry 

With another helpful technician - Mark 

With my supervisor, a great one and a friendly one - Leslie 

With another supervisor, another great and helpful one - Alan 

Gathered for the final time at Orange Tree @ 27th July 2011

Shakes hands, best wishes, thank you, good luck

and that's all done.

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Packing and packing and packing and cleaning and cleaning and cleaning.....

Going Barcelona Friday morning, 2am +, back on the 3rd.

Need to move to new house on the 3rd, going down London on the 4th

Terribly hectic. 

Wake at 6.30am this morning. 7.15am start to pindah all 7 boxes of 20+kg down to the gate for collection. Then spend the rest of the day packing the left over stuff, cleaning my room, packing for Spain..

Super tired now.

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I think I will miss my room. 

I think I will miss my lecturers.

I think I will miss here. 

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HOLIDAY HAS OFFICIALLY STARTED

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^_^ 

18th July 2011

Monday 18th July '11


It's the FINAL PRESENTATION finally.

I experienced the mixture of sad and happy emotions. You'll know why. XD

However, when I woke in the morning, I experienced a terrible stomachache and also feel like vomiting.. T_T (I suspect is food poisoning...) I almost want to call and tell my classmate that I'm not coming. I think to myself, if it's not the FINAL FINAL FINAL, I would not drag myself out of my room. I keep my finger cross that I would not faint on the road.

Feeling very weak, I walked to Uni. Reach there, load my presentation on the screen and sit and wait. Feeling still very bad. And I realised the little notes I made last night was forgotten on my desk. T^T

Anyway, the presentation runs smoothly. I gather all my courage and start my presentation. (After all, I know it wouldn't affect my marks.. XD)

Since it's the last presentation, I took photos of everyone presenting.

Isak 

Issac

Me

Peng

Elitzza

Jin

Nani 

After presenting, all of us is like.. wow.. it's done. It's finished. ^_^

And then, it is photo time. We never took a group photo together so it is the perfect time.

MA Product Futures 2010/2011

With our supervisors Alan and Les

Not to forget some of the great, friendly and helpful technician down in the workshop.

Kerry 

Mark

There's still more people to catch for photo session but we'll leave it first. XD

Now, the only thing left is on next Monday 10am when we will meet the External examiner.

Next Wednesday meeting Alan and Les at Orange Tree for a little drink and bid our goodbyes. It's kinda.. emotional moment.. XD

I will make sure I grab lots of photos for memories on that day.

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On another note, Tuesdays night we will be gathered at Peng's house for some pizza and drinks. (Not that I drink.. XD)

Next week, day not decided, it will be at Isak's house for the long awaited BBQ! I'm really looking forward to that. XD

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And now, it is time to think of holidays. I'm looking at places to go in Barcelona.

And then, MEETING SIAWCHENG! OMygawDDDD! And we will both fly.. I mean, sit to Europe! Paris, Italy, Austria and Prague! Wait for me!!!!

Then, back to Nottingham in Sept, I'm thinking of joining a 4 days trip to Scotland by myself. If I still have some money left. XD I always wanted to go Scotland...... Scotland!!!!!

Next, back to Malaysia. Food.. Oh, and my piano... my beloved piano. I miss you sooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!! It has been... more than 6 months...!!! I need you darling!

Then, gathering with all my darling friends... You guys are not forgetting me are you??!!! Spare sometime to meet me!

Next, planning places to go in Singapore mid of Oct. ^_^

Then, cousin wedding in Nov.

Back to UK with dad and mom end of Nov.

Oh, and planning the trip to Taiwan soon. ^_^

Many things to do ya..

What about looking for a job and finding money?

I'm pretending I'm a millionaire for the time being. ^_^

15th July 2011

Friday 15th July 2011


It's nearing the end of the week again. Today the Expo is open to the public. Went there around 11am because Xian wanted to see why her prototype aren't working and later on lunch with their classmates.

Went to Post Office before though. Xian reach Bonington 1st.

Before I step into the building, Xian already called me to tell me my poster had fell. Again. This time, I try to use the glue gun to stick it. Again. Before I have the chance to stick the felled poster back up again, the other follow suit. =.=" Both want the same treatment. So, I gave them both a great dosage and put them to bed up to the panel again.

Hope they stay they from now onwards till the end of the Expo and after the External examiner evaluate them.

Meet Ran, a new friend I found during the Open day when I worked as Student Ambassador. She is going to start her MA this Sept and now she's taking the English course. So, she came to the Expo this morning with all her classmates. Bring her around and chat with her a while. She's from Taiwan.

After that, lunch at Orange Tree. Chat a while with Xian and Fiola's classmates and help them take some photos.

Back home. Skype and sort out all my photos. Found out I have almost 500+ photos from the two days. XD

Lot's of photos coming up soon.

Next, I have to prepare the presentation powerpoint, present and done.

No more daily report.. XD

Only photos!

^_^


ps. Suddenly I feel that preparing for the Expo is much more fun than having the Expo. After all, there's nothing much to do during the Expo. It's so free now that I feel... kinda weird. Hmm...

14th July 2011

THURSDAY 14TH JULY 2011

MA EXPO 2011 begans!

There's just too many photos to choose to upload and I'm so tired to do that now hence I will leave it till I'm well fed and rested.

For now, I'm going to talk about what happened today.

Today is the private view for industry invites and friends and family. Very exciting at first.

Began the day by choosing which clothes to wear since they mention - SMART as the dress code, which I take it as, 'dress up please'.

Ask opinions from various friends regarding whether to wear WHITE or BLACK dress....... I'm going crazy over these two dresses. Since I'm very free since this morning, I have all the time to choose. ^_^

Finally decided on the black dress since it was highly voted by few of them.

The night before, tried curling my hair with socks, YES, SOCKS. That naughty SC keep laughing at me. :P

Highly influence by that Xian and Fiola.. So I tried it as well. This morning when I take the socks off my hair, it became like a .. spring.. And I can't stop laughing! XDDDDDD

Anyway, from everyone comments, it seems my hair looks not bad.. 1st time tried this and it works. ^_^

Reach Bonington around 1pm+ and start to take lots of photos. Since there's not much people around, taking photos is fun. ^_^

Get our Expo catalogue from the office and browse through them. Not bad. XD

Did some final touch to the display and sit..no, stand back and wait. ^^

It is suppose to start at 4pm but there's not much of them. After an hour though, more people arrive. However, it seems my area are a bit.. lonely.. XDDD

Anyway, towards the end, I got some quite interesting feedbacks from the visitors. And that's all I want. ^_^

Oh, and some of my photos that I took during the Giving the Eye project was shown at a big tv screen as well. I'm a proud photographer. ^_^

It's so tiring to stand around since about 1pm till just now 8pm. And keep smilling at the strangers..make my cheek ache. XD

Fiola says it's like our wedding... where we keep taking photos and smilling at everyone.. XDDDDD

Nani is a little drunk because she keeps drinking the red wine.. LoL.. Xian is a little pening as well..XD

Maybe some photos for now.

Our group photo of the day 

My display! ^_^

My photos at the big screen.. ^_^

MA Expo 2011

Jin and me! 

H-Box

Me at 8pm

Have to rest. 

See you guys soon.

^_^

13th July 2011

Wednesday, 13th July '11

Very fast. It's the eve of MA Expo 2011 already. Without realising, it's already nearing the end. The big day of everything we've been doing for the year is getting here.. less than 24 hours by the time I'm writing this. 

The opening of MA Expo 2011 is at tomorrow, 14th July 2011 4pm. 

Today I did not go back Uni early as I print some photos at home. Last minute, thought of doing a little photo book for my H-Box. Took some studio photos yesterday so just print them out on some photo papers. After doing that, went to Bonington to dump my stuff at my corner and dash to the Print Shop to bind them.

    

This is the outcome

Also did some little jewellery at home as well. Laser cut them previously and now decided to put them together inside my boxes. ^_^ 

Some of the little things.. 

Can wear them after the Expo! 

Arrange my stuff on my plinth and start to get confuse as I'm not sure how should I put them.. T_T

1st try 

Name cards 

Bored! 

Oh, and then Xian found Peng's specs that's limited edition. She say it is very nice so all of us try it out.. XD

Weird? 

Fiola

Xian

In the evening, Issac finally completed his cupboard-cum-table and it was brought to the studio finally. We all waited for it to arrive..xD

Finally ~ 

He have almost all the workshop technicians to transport his cupboard to the studio.. (While all of us have to bring them over ourselves.. including the damn heavy plinths... T_T) 

With Carl 

Carl, Phil, Elitzza, Alan, Me, Nani 

Alan n Me 

So, back home, I'm wondering what I'm wearing tomorrow evening. It's gonna be a hard decision to make. Why can't we all have some kind of t-shirt like our Sequence, then I wouldn't need to think so much.. XDDD

^_^

Tomorrow is the Big Day.

Can't believe we've actually come so far.

Think about the beginning.

It seems only yesterday when it happened.

Gonna have lots of photos.

See you!

8th July 2011

Friday 8th July '11


It's Friday already.

There's nothing much to do today. Therefore, back to Uni around 9am+.. It's been sometime since we reach Uni that late.. haha

Back to workshop first to find G for some laser cutting. Not very smooth as the machine did not really recognise some of my words so G very patiently redraw my wordings... Thanks a lot! ^^

Then spray the foam board with spray mount and stick my poster to it. Done!

Then, off to Bonington MA Studio to set up our spaces. Spent the whole morning and afternoon there.

Very messy place..

Bring my posters and models over to set up and see the space, decide how to display my little things. Raining the whole morning. Wet! Have to protect my posters so wrap them up with layers of plastic. XD

Trying to make sure the poster is straight

Sticking them

Putting some glue onto the board to stick to the panel

Finish

Very fast, it's done. Now I can forget something.. haha.. But at the same time, I'm a bit worry about it as, if there's anything wrong, many things to undo...XDDDD

After that, it's time to help my friends.. haha

Helped Jin with her display.

Jin's Display

I put the glue, she glue it on. Very pretty little items.. Love her products. Lucy even say that she wanted to buy the casing from her after the Expo..Wow.. I'm impressed. Haha

After that, it is time for some fools..

Jin, Fiola, Me, Elitzza

My head

Tonight we have steamboat for a little small celebration of handing in our dissertation. Haha.. Very relax as we can sit and chat after eating, something we haven't done for sometime.

Fiola & Xian - Waiting for the soup to boil 

Me, Pork Liver & Fiola 

The foods! 

And tonight, I have new flatmate. It's a guy from our MA. No more private kitchen already..XDDD

Therefore, now instead of listening to English, I'm listening to Chinese. Nice.

7th July 2011

Thursday 7th July '11


It's fate.

Everytime I'm rushing for something, things will go wrong. Last Sunday when I'm rushing to finish my animation and etc, my laptop decided to go on strike. Each button I click it takes 10minutes to work it out. I've restarted it almost 6 times.

Yesterday night, when I want to burn the animation files into the CD for submission today, my laptop decided that it doesn't want to help me and went on strike again. This time, he decided not to open the cover for me to insert the CD. I can't even try to burn it! Geram betul!

Therfore, this morning, aroun 8.10am, walk to Uni already, since I am a little worried about the CD.. T_T

Luckily everything seems smooth. Burnt them smoothly.

Then, continue to work on my poster. And very fast, decided to print it.

It's done! All I have to do now is to wait for Jin to bring me her spray mount so I can mount it onto the foam board. Hope it's not hard.

After that, wait for all my classmate and we go submit out dissertation and journals to our supervisor. Done that. Yes!

Then, back to workshop again as usual. Nothing much to do though. Work on producing some minor display such as my prototype progress.. haha.. Instead of arranging my poster in Illustrator, I'm arranging them on a piece of wood.. Hard to decide which look better. In the end, just settle is simply.. afterall, it's not that important.

Have fun doing this though since it is not of anything important.. XD

Then it is about lunch time so I went up to CCT2 to do some drawings for laser cut. Need some wording for the board above. The room is freezing.. Aircondition too much!

Back to the workshop and help Nani and Jin to move their plinth to Bonington. Again... XDDDD

Spent some time at Bonington trying to figure out whether I have enough space or not for my posters..

Then, decided to leave early today to get back to the VH office. These two weeks often left home before the office open and back after they close. No time to check mail and ask questions.. haha.. Besides, today nothing much to do. Rest early.. haha

Walk to much these few days, my leg muscle is hurting me everytime I walk. Hope it's ok soon... >_<"

The workshop is practically empty besides us nowadays since the other technicians went to London. And no other students is there. 

Empty Empty 

Our world

Therefore, listen to some music.. haha.. But the workshop is too noisy. Can't listen well.

Anyway, today not much interesting happened..

Oh, Fiola's model is finally done. I see her do it from the beginning... Seeing it finish is so gam dung..

Super duper pretty! 

Very the detail, very the neat

Very geng! She's really very patient and well plan person.

(I tried to help me at some time but in the end, I'm like making more mistake and giving her more trouble than not helping.. T_T.. so sorry.. )

Now, since the dissertation was submitted. All we have to focus is on the Expo. ^_^

In a week time!