Day 30

It has been 30 days since I reach Nottingham, UK. Time do flies don't they? At times, it seems like there are so long until the day I can fly back to Malaysia. On the other hand, without me realising, I had already been on my own for 30days. I pass each day by itself. Spending the morning mostly browsing Facebook to check on my friends, play so games, eat some breakfast and then prepare to go for class. If I have an evening class, I will then skype with my family before going for class. During night time, I would feel the emptiness in my room when all my friends had already sleep. I will then watch drama until I'm sleepy.

This had been a routine for the pass 30days. I started to feel that I did not come here to study. I come here to experience life alone. I spent the days sleeping, eating and watching pps. That's all I do.

Without realising, I had been living like this for 30days. How can I continue to live like this? I have to make up my mind to be more responsible. Not just eat and sleep.

However, I really do not know what can I do besides all that. Right now, my assignment aren't really tight yet. And I've been slacking a little. I start to wonder what will happen when deadline approach.

After 30days, I start to think of the times when I could just wear a short pants or skirt with a t-shirt and go out..whether shopping or studying. However, for the 30days here, I have been putting on heavy coat and scarf before walking out of my room. In the beginning, it seems fun. Now, it is a drag. I feel really frustrated with the weather. Walking in the cold wind is bad.. but reaching the Uni building which is warm is more bad. Cause it make me colder after 2 hours inside and I need to walk home again.

I miss the time when I can just go anywhere I like anytime. I wanted to go shopping and eat anything I desire and spent the time laughing with my friends.

Shopping here just isn't that fun. All because I need to watch my purse, or rather, my card and all things seem to be heavy and bulky. I couldn't buy any ornaments I found cute cause I couldn't possibly bring them back to Malaysia. Some coats I found and I really like but it just doesn't make sense to buy so many coats as I only need them for 10 months. Back in Malaysia, I wouldn't even thought of wearing them. Besides, the coats are really heavy and it would be problems when I'm packing that time.

With all this worries, how can I shop with enjoyment? Not to mention I walk inside this shopping centre everyday. This building serve as a 'tunnel' between my home and Uni. What fun it is to go during the weekend? I walk in it everyday which in another words means, I shop everyday. There's nothing special about weekend now beside it means housework, grocery shopping and watching drama whole day. Sunday doesn't seem special now since it is the same as any other day.

This doesn't sound good right?

I hope this depress mood is just passing by. I wouldn't want to spent the next 10 months depressing. In actual fact, I feel much happier when I am outside either walking all around without motive or in Uni. At least, I'm with people and there's things happening. Inside my room, I would just facebook, blog, drama, eat and sleep. This beside making me depress, it make me fat and lazy.

=.="

Dreams

Know what?

Ever since I know how to read and write, I've always dream of being a writer. Not those dream you have when you sleep okay? ^^"

When I'm in school, I will often write short little stories. And I mean it.. really really SHORT. Maybe just a page or 2 or 3 long. Haha.. The storyline will mostly be my own fantasy. I write it out of interest and when I read them again years later, I found that those stories are really innocent, and stupid. *blush*

I would think of re-write it again but then, when I take up my pen, I couldn't start. Those stories are my childhood's work and I couldn't write the same thing again with correct grammar and etc. The style is different and thus, I did not alter them. Put them back into my cupboard and take out another notepad and start a different story.

However, all my stories are like essays we write while in school. Just 2-3 pages long. Nothing much to shout about. Therefore, I often wonder how does those people write and write and could publish it into a book? I could never do that. =.="

I read articles about how to write short stories/novels and I noticed that first, I have to know my storyline very well. And then, develop my characters. Then I know my problem. I know my storyline. I know my character. But they do not know me and therefore, my character couldn't communicate with me so my storyline could go on forever. They are stranger to me. They would just appear and say Hi, and then Bye and that's all.

This is sad.

I always wanted my story to be able to receive real critics but I do not even have any story for people to critic. Isn't it pathetic? I often wanted to do something, but after a night, I will lose my interest. This is really my weakness. Could I possibly amend it?

Like now.. while watching drama on PPS, I suddenly had the urge to blog..all because the character in the drama blogs. =.="""

This is terrible. I could be distracted very very easily. This is no good.

Maybe..Just maybe, one day, you would see my story somewhere.. in print!  ^.^

Random Note 1

Random Notes 1

1. Everything you do seems sillier when you are alone than when you are with company. Especially in public spaces. Even little things such as sneezing might attract more attention when you are alone.
2. When coming back from the outside, bath straight away to avoid freezing.
3. When there is homework, all I want to do is just slack. When there is time to slack, all I want to do is to continue.
4. Being in the company of the locals make me feel like a aborigines. 
5. Thinking about my research and watching drama cannot be done together.
6. I have eaten grapes continuously for at least 2 weeks.
7. Shopping is more enjoyable if I can use what I bought. 
8. Being in a university is a lot of fun, yet, sometimes I wonder why I wanted to come here.
9. I want to go travelling around Europe but yet to find companions. I wonder if I can just go alone?
10. I walk around the City site alone for 2 hours this afternoon, I feel freedom, yet, I am not completely satisfied. 

Water, Oh Water

Walking to Uni for class isn't as pleasant as you think. You would say "oh, the weather there so nice, walk also more comfortable lah~"

I would say you are too naive.

Try imagine yourself walking down the street, wearing a jacket complete with scarf and handbag over your shoulder, carrying a bunch of books from library that's due, along with the damn big A3 sketch book, a pink file, and a thick note book with pens dangling on it, while the COLD wind keep blowing at your face until you thought your face had drop on the ground and look for it only to notice it had gone freezing..


Then after 15mins, when you arrive at the building, and rush inside to the class which still need about 5mins walk away from the main building, and finally step into the room, sit down and pant. Starts to take off your jacket and scarf because you starts to feels hot after the rush. While getting back your breath, you feels thirsty. Turn to your bag and do a treasure hunt inside your bag for the 'gold'.


Your water.

Which is when you notice, due to this morning coldness and maddening rushing, you forgot to put that stupid water bottle which you had already fill up to the top into your already very heavy bag.

So, all the time during the class, you couldn't quench your thirst. In the beginning, you don't really feel very thirsty, but after you realise you did not have any water with you, you start to feel a bit thirsty. When you keep thinking why hadn't you be more careful you become MORE thirsty. Until the end of the class, you are practically DYING of thirst.

Then you realise the important of water.

We practically abusing our water. We don't ever notice how precious water it. Being in a country where water is always there, always clean and safe to drink, we don't notice how lucky we are. In the world, there are billions of other people who doesn't have this luxury. People drink water that are brown in colour. Those are water that are polluted. It contains virus and bacteria which could led to sickness.

This is a very important issues around the world. Water is a daily basic need. We can go without food for days, but we couldn't survive without water. We use water for almost everything. Imagine those places where the water are coloured. Imagine them using those water for their daily usage. Everyday, there would be children dying of unsafe water and unhygienic living lifestyle. They drink the 'coloured' water, they get sick, they got no one to cure them, they die.

Cleanliness of the water could be done. It might not be an overnight project but it could be improving from time to time. Eventhough you might not think we can help make a changes, we can.

Just by simply NOT throwing anything besides the nature into the SEA and RIVER, we could already applause ourselves. Small gestures do help. Don't waste water while washing your face. Don't waste water by playing with it. Don't throw waste into the sea. Couldn't we all do that?

Imagine us without water for an hour when we are thirsty, would you be willing to drink water which are 'coloured'?

Many people around the world drinks them everyday. They doesn't have a choice. Even then, those water do not come easily like us, with taps + filters. Women have to carry tons of water on their back and walk and walk and walk before reaching their house, providing water for her family. Not to mention that the water she brings back are polluted. Does she have a choice?

*This post is writen in conjunction with Blog Action Day 2010*

How do I survive?

I'm really weird. I always feel like blogging at the odd hours. Especially during the night before tutorial. *wink*

So here am I today, blogging to avoid researching and reading..

(Oh, and by the way, in order to let me have some memories, would you leave a comment at my comment box and not my chat box? I know I sound desperate for comments right? Pathetic.. But, when I need comfort, reading you guys comment do help and if you leave them at the chat box, they will be gone after sometime..  ^^")


Today, I am going to show you guys how I live in Nottingham. Do I live with burger and fries? Or do I live with bread and cheese?

Ta-DAHHHH!!!

October 1st, 2010

October 12th, 2010

October 14th, 2010

Found some similarities?

Haha.. Yup! All of them are placed in a PINK plate! ^^  Oh.. and all of them contains Chicken, Rice and Egg.. and Potatoes..

Well, as you guys probably know, I love chicken. So, it is normal that I should cook chicken. Isn't it? And what else can chicken mix with? Potatoes... LoL..

The 1st plate of rice I ever cook is in the 1st pix. That's my 1st plate of rice I ever ever cooked. But luckily it turn out well although I put too many water that day. So the next time I cook rice, I put lesser and it turns out well. ^^

The soy sauce chicken is also my 1st masterpiece. I just dump everything I have into the pot and boil. I think I boil these chicken, potatoes, ginger, onion and egg for about 2 hours +.. =.=" But I like the taste.. Not sure anyone likes it or not la.. Haha..

The 3rd time I cooked the chicken, I don't have onion and ginger with me. I'm just plain lazy to buy so just cook with the soy sauce and put more potatoes in. It taste well. I like it with rice. Without rice, it will be tooooo salty.. My fault.. Haha.. Next time will be better.

Therefore, my next target is curry chicken. LoL.. Yup, with chicken and potatoes as well. Haha..

Oh.. and I often eat grapes as well.. Haha..